God's Greatest Gift

This was initially suppose to be a letter to my friend who recently lost her mother, and the more I thought about it, I thought it could touch you all reading including my own mother. I have been thinking about my friend a lot lately and what all she's going through and I wanted to find the right words to maybe help her in this time, and I was reminded of what a friend said to me when I lost my Granny; he said she lives on through you. I've been thinking about that statement more now than I did when he said that to me and he's right! So I wanted to share a story (somewhat) about God's Greatest Gift in my life and how she lives in me!

She was the first beautiful woman I'd ever seen. She had the prettiest smile, brown glowing skin, thick black long curly hair and a confidence that I didn't get until I turned 30. As a child I would watch her as she put on her Fashion Fair makeup, even til this day if I smell FF lipstick I think back to riding in the backseat of her red sports car with her and her girlfriends as we would roll through Herman Park on a Sunday. I would watch her do her hair and she would rock the same hairstyle and she was very particular with the way she wore it, and I would look at her and wonder why she had to have it THAT way. She wore Gloria Vanderbilt (however you spell that) jeans and I guess she thought she was looking good whenever she wore them because she had a lot...okay she did look good in them! As a child I watched how much she loved and respected her mother and how close their relationship was. No she was not perfect as she let me eat out maybe 5times a week and whatever I wanted...McDonalds, Popeyes, and then we discovered Pappadeaux's and it was on. I remember one time we went there for dinner twice in a week. Once a year me and her would play hookie and sit at home and watch movies and laugh. We would dance together all the time and sometimes wrestle, of course she showed me no mercy.

As I got into my preteen and teenager years I started to not want to be like her. She came up to my school one time in rollers and a scarf, and I would have rathered died! If she thought somebody was mistreating me she would make a big deal out of it and BLOW UP, and I would want to crawl into a hole. I would look at her like she had lost it every time a Frankie Beverly song came on and she would throw up one arm and shout "heeeeey, that's my song"! I'm thinking OKAY but don't tell nobody, LOL. Her brother was in the army and was based out of state, when he would leave from a visit she would lock herself in the bathroom and cry. I was thinking what a cry baby, he'll be back. Growing up I just didn't understand her ways and they use to bother me. I would think she's only 20 years older than me shouldn't we think more alike?

Fast forward to today and I'm 32 and she's 52 and now those years don't seem so far apart. Back to that statement that she lives through you is so true. Daughter's, our mother's not only live through us we are our mother's. Remember that saying every woman dreaded...well I believe it's true. Looking at my mother and aunts I see my granny. Looking at my other aunts I see my other grandmother it's amazing. OMG I am Sharon Samuel; I have to wear my hair in a particular way if it's not in that way I will wash it and start over! There are certain jeans I wear That I swear I'm the baddest thing walking when I put them on :). I have the worst eating habits (thanks momma, granny said that was your fault) I'm quick to go to a fast food spot for dinner instead of veggies, but she's making me do better (ain't that something LOL). I will wear my wrap cap ANYWHERE and DARE anybody to say something, I just don't care, that is so funny to me now. She took me to a Frankie Beverly concert when I was in college and to this day I think Maze is the greatest band of all times and yes when I hear one of their songs or Patti Labelle, I throw one arm in the air and say "Heeeyyy"!! I have a close relationship with her like she did with her mother. I talk to my mother, kid you not, like 4 or 5 times a day, and when I don't call her back, she'll say "Why didn't you call me back girl'? My brother came to visit me here in LA and I when I dropped him off at the airport I cried all the way home...can you believe that? Who's the cry baby now? I talk to my brother on the phone like EVERYDAY and I cried like a baby when he left. It's crazy I look in the mirror and I see my mother, I am my mother. I say little things at times and I laugh to myself afterwards because it's something she would say.

I wanted to tell my friend your mother may be gone but she left her wisdom, her laughter, heart, face, memories, beliefs, stories with you and she will always be with you because you are her! Same to my mother, I know it was hard when you lost your mother but you act just like her.

Mother's are some of God's Greatest Gift. My mother is so awesome I can't believe it at times. When I get into a bind she says "What are we gonna do"? or "We may be in trouble"? I'm thinking wow, you're going down with me? LOL. My troubles are your troubles, that is the most selfless thing anybody could do for another.I am aware that not everybody has this story maybe your Gift was a father, aunt, granny, sister, or a friend but we all have somebody that has just been amazing in our life and we should take the time to thank God for them and to thank that person.

Ladies are you your mother?

Move, Get Out My Way!!!

I know we always talk about the really really big things GOD does for us, but I want to talk about something not so big, but did start to become a burden in my life, also to show you how something small can affect your life in a negative way. Now when you hear what this blog is about you are so gonna laugh, but that's good because you'll see how something so silly can get out of hand. What am I talking about...ROAD RAGE!!!

Who's still laughing? Be quiet. ;) I can't tell you when this started, but I do know I had it when I lived in Atlanta because I was reading my old prayer book the other day and I actually had Road Rage listed. I remember praying to control my temper behind the wheel, and I never thought it could better because it Always got worse. When I first moved to Los Angeles I was in prayer about this issue, and I remember I was driving and I was at a light and another driver was upset with me because of the way I was positioned, she rolled down her window and called me a slut. Like I said I was in prayer about it because normally I would had rolled down my window and called her a few names too, but I didn't. I remember shaking and actually crying because I wanted to go off on the lady but GOD was working with me and I needed to work with him. So let me tell you what I use to do and how bad it really was.

If someone would cut me off I would catch up with them and cut them off. Pass by people and make the crazy person face, blow my horn at people for not moving fast enough, then get mad if someone blew their horn at me. This woman blew her horn at my one time I put my car in park and made her go around me, and of course as she went around I rolled my window down and smiled and waved at her. When two cars go the same speed side by side, it would kill me when I couldn't get passed them, so I would ride both of them until one moved. The list goes on and on, however one nice thing was I would do, I would let anybody over...I was a polite Road Rager.

I noticed it was a problem when I got out of my car and would still be upset. I would go to work upset, or to the store and would wait for somebody to say something "smart" to me, and if they did, I would really have an attitude and all because it started in my car. It started to mess up my whole day and I'm an actress, so imagine me going into an audition with an attitude reading for a cheerleader.?? I use to say ShaWanna what if you go off on somebody one day, and you get to your audition and it was casting director? Who thinks I'd get the part? Me neither.

I was a totally different person behind the wheel, and I would feel crazy afterwards, so I started to pray about it. When that lady called me a slut I was in the process of working on my temper behind the wheel, that's why I started crying because everything in me wanted to let her have it, but I didn't. Funny instead of me being happy I passed that test I was still upset, LOL. That was in 2005, it's 2010 and yes I hav gotten better, but God is not done with me yet!! For the most part I'm a lot better, if I do lose it for a second I'm able to pull it together right away. I don't make faces or cut people off anymore, and I wait before I blow my horn, just to give them a second to see that the light has changed. I think writing about it tonight will make me more aware the next time I get behind the wheel.

So pray for me and don't cut me off if you see me driving!

Angels You Can See!

I have always heard about we have guardian angels around us, but what I know for sure is that we have angels that walk with us everyday. Of course we have close friends that gives us really good advice or we attend groups and we inspire each other, but I believe that God sends some people to talk directly to us when we are in the thick of things. I'm not trying to spook anyone here, I think these are cute stories and they will make you smile and hopefully "my angels" reading this will feel that they were actually apart of something even bigger than just giving a kind word or two.

One night around 9pm, week night, I was in my "Office" (Extra bedroom) and I was doing my actor's stuff; submitting for parts, correcting cover letters, looking through my Ross Reports...you actors know, the fun stuff we love to do! I got frustrated and overwhelmed. I had a conversation with my now Ex husband, a week prior, and he was asking me if I wanted to go back home to Houston, and I told him no, and that I was going to keep trying until something gives. Well a week later, something gave, my patience, LOL. So I'm in the office and I get tired and I was about to let out a big cry when the phone rang, and it made me stop. It was my aunt Sue. Now my aunt time is 11pm and normally she's sleep, but she called me. So she says she was just calling to see how I was doing, and I lied and said fine :) She says "OK", then she says "God wanted me to call you and tell you to just hold on he has so many wonderful blessings in store, and things you can't imagine, and everything is going to work out". So I'm looking around like "who's watching me"? I just said thank you and we got off of the phone. Not one tear dropped and the almost cry turned into a smile.

One time at church we were doing a fast and we were to ask God for direction in our life. Well I fasted but I felt I already knew God's direction for my life but still something wasn't clicking. That next week I got an email from my step mother Jeanie and it said: Hi Wanna, God is able to do exceedingly abundantly above WHAT YOU CAN ASK OR THINK. He will do it if you will only believe. Love, Jeanie. I copy and pasted her email. Now nobody knew I was fasting, so I took this as God speaking to me and it says it clear as day, if only I believe, and that was the missing ingredient with my faith in '05. Now I believe, I believe enough for everybody reading this blog, that God will do everything for you!

Out of the blue once my sister Tenisha emailed me in '03, yes I still have the email (I'll have to show her) and she told me to believe in what I was asking God for and that all things were possible. She also told me she was proud of me and that means a lot too, for a loved one to say that.

I think this is a good message for both sides because, have you ever had the hunch to call somebody and just say something encouraging? I think it's God and we shouldn't ignore those because someone may be really going through something and need to hear a word. Even if it's praying together over the phone, my friend Shawn Eaglin and I are prayer partners (even though we have fallen off this year, we are starting back in May). You can also be a blessing to someone else just by sharing a word you recieved in church. When I hear something wonderful, instead of just chatting on the phone with my mother I tell her what I learned and that can bless her day.

What I learned from these experiences is to BE an Angel to somebody. The best feeling in the world to me is to make somebody laugh, so I try to do that when someone is down. The bottom line is, if you're an Angel to somebody and they do the same, everybody would be angels eventually, then there would be world peace! Did I go too far on the last statement? Maybe so.


By the way, please be aware of random people who come up to you and say God told me to tell you this, and they start to look in the sky and get the "spirit"! My pastor calls those people "Spooky" not Spiritual!

What Happens To A Dream Deferred?

I have absolutely no idea!

Let's all make a pact, as long as we are alive we will continue to go after our dreams, so we won't be sitting around one day at 80 saying "I wish I would have tried juggling"! :)

Let's Do It!

"Cheaper" To Have Your Own Dreams!

As you all know I am an actress, but what you may not know is I also produce and write. I write because I have a funny imagination, and I produce because, who else is going to put my art out there? It's difficult as a black female actress because the parts they write for us are limited, so I started writing because there were certain parts I wanted to play or see other's play. I know some people have been like..."Oh so you want to act, write, AND produce, whatever". I believe what ever dreams stay in your heart are from God, so this blog is about following your own dreams!

OK, I can get right to it because you all know about "Cheaper To Keep Her", I just want to show you how God worked this out for me, so if you have dreams, and people tells you, you shouldn't go after them, maybe this will help you and you can keep on pushing and not let anything or anyone distract you. I will try and make this as short as possible, because it's not so much about the play but it's about letting God lead you.

Fall of 2009 I decided that the urban theater needed a woman's voice. We have Tyler Perry, Je'Caryous Johnson, and David E. Talbert, and these men are writing for women... Houston we have a problem, men are talking for the sisters!!! So I said I'll write a play and this time instead of doing it in Los Angeles I'll take it to my roots, Houston. I got excited I was going to write it, produce it, possibly direct it all by myself. I was so excited I told my mother whose response was "Oh OK", that pretty much means whatever ;) I told my best friend whose response was "Maybe you shouldn't write it, just pay someone else to write", that pretty much means your not a trained writer. I mentioned my mom and BFF for a reason... they are 2 important people in my life and if they were hinting that I shouldn't do it, I probably shouldn't have, right? WRONG! Even the people who love us most don't know what GOD has in store for you, so when you let someone in on your dreams, continue to love and respect them, but take their opinions with a grain of salt, and let God work out it out.

Once I decided to write my play, I needed a plot. After a phone call with my ex husband in Nov 2009, I laughed and said it would have been cheaper to keep me, and a light bulb went off. The next day I wrote the entire play in a day. It's like I woke up and God put all of the ideas in my brain. Finished the script, loved it and I made a list of all the things I needed to do to get my play up and running for Dec 2010. It was going to be so freaking expensive to produce the play, and I remember looking at the Hobby Center and saying "Man I wish I could have it there"! So I scratched that and at the end of Nov I decided I would just do it in L.A.

I went home to Houston for my sister's wedding and just stayed through to Christmas. Enter Je'Caryous Johnson. Je'Caryous and I go way back, to middle school, and he was telling me he was in the process of trying to write his next play and he was trying to work out the details, so I started to help him brainstorm. Not thinking I said, see in the play I just wrote, blah blah blah, and he said you wrote a play? I said yes, it's called Cheaper To Keep Her, and he started laughing. Long story short he asked to read it and he saw potential in my writing, and he said I could be like Mara Brock Akil (creator of The Game, and Girlfriends) but most important he like my raw talent. Like I said earlier, my friend didn't think I was trained enough to do this but that's what got JC attention, it's like that quote, God doesn't call the qualified, he qualifies the called...Yes I am the called... and so are YOU!

J and I have worked really hard on this script and we leave tomorrow to North Carolina for our first show, and I'm super duper excited. WAIT, do I have time for a cheap plug? Yes, yes I do. Come out and see the show, I promise you, you will laugh and cry! I will attach the link on the bottom to see the tour dates ;) Now back to your blog...

I stepped out on faith, I did what God put in my heart and followed his direction. About a month ago I look at my to do list for my play that I made, and just started crying because God handled it soooo much better than I ever could. Also, guess where it's playing in Houston? At the HOBBY CENTER!! LOOK AT GOD!

Have your own dreams because it ends up costing you so much more doing what other's want you to do, than what God has planned for you. Go after your DREAMS!!!!


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Never Would Have Made It, Without Her...

I was her oldest grandchild, so she loved me the most right away. She played a huge part in raising me. She spoiled me so much that when she would get me ready for school, she let me sleep while she got me dressed, just because she didn't want to wake me. I spent the weekend's and summer vacations with her, and we would have a ball. We would watch old TV shows like, the Mary Tyler Moore show and the Apollo, she would let me wear her nightgowns, and she would load up on my favorite snacks so we could munch all night long. She was my first friend outside of my mother, and I could tell her anything and she never tell a soul. People would ask me, "Are you a mommas baby or a daddy's girl"? I would always say, "I'm actually a Granny's Girl"! Doris Jean was my grandmother and to me she was the strongest person I knew, still the most loving.

We had a bond like no other. My granny never took mess from anybody, she was very stern. She would always tell us, if somebody did this and that to me I would (go with your imagination) because she didn't play. In fact when somebody had to tell her something not so good, they would call me to tell her because I was the only person she never raised her voice to. On the flip side, she was one of the funniest people I have ever met. She would have us laughing for hours talking about her adventures growing up, or the loony people at her job. Anytime you wanted to hear a story or feel her love, you could go to her house and she would be sitting outside on her porch. As soon as I would pull into her driveway and see her, I felt at home because she was my heart.

She was the granny who would cook every body's favorite for the holiday's, or get you that one thing that you wanted most in the world, and she took pleasure out of taking care of her family. The day's when I was just at a lost, she would call and I didn't have to say much, she knew I wasn't myself. She would send for someone to come and pick me up, and she would pamper me until I was back to myself. One time at 20, I had gotten the Chicken Pox and nobody wanted to come near me, lol, she sent for me. She cooked for me, gave me oatmeal baths, rubbed my hair to relax me. She probably saved my face because I was scratching sooo bad!

Once I got married, she couldn't WAIT for me to have some babies! I would say "Granny women are waiting longer these days to start a family". She would just shrug her shoulders and say "Whatever, you better hurry up before it's too late". After awhile, it felt like all she wanted was for me to have some babies, and I would be like Oh My God Granny, just wait. :)

After I got married I moved to Georgia. I know my mother and the rest of my family was sad, but she never said anything to let me know that she was feeling the same. She would call me every other day and just talk to me for a hour and give me updates, and the way she told a story was so funny, I was always entertained. Once I moved away, I begin to realize how much of an impact she was in my life. Looking back at all the days sitting on the porch with her and hearing her words, I realized she was giving me a part of her. She was teaching me how to be a lady, a friend, a mother, so many of the great things she was. She taught my family how to look out for one another, love each other no matter what, and to never give up on each other.

So many wonderful things I could say about Doris Jean, but I want to get on with the 2 points of this story. My Granny passed away on her actual birthday December 18, 2008 she turned 68 that day. What happens when you take the bolder away that's holding up the other rocks? They start to move and shift around, because they are not stable. My family, we are adjusting, still, it's not easy. We are getting better each day!

1st thing, people would ask me if I have any fears. I would say yeah, that my grandmother would pass before I had kids, because I need her to be here to help me. Words and fears are powerful because in this case my fear came to pass. No I'm not saying that's why she passed on, but what I am saying, when we walk around putting fears up high we are opening ourselves up for them to happen. After she passed I was walking around saying, I'm living my greatest fear...but I'm still alive. Fears are not real! Fears are not real!

2nd thing is, I lost one of the most important people in my life and I know normally our first reaction is to be hurt, and angry, but after that wore off, I finally understood and appreciated the sacrifice Jesus made for us. God sacrificed his only son so that we can have everlasting life.... so that I can have everlasting life and see my grandmother again. I pray everybody who is reading this forms a relationship with Jesus. I have a peace in my heart because without him I would have lost my mind, seriously, because I don't know how I have made it since she left, if it were not becaus of God.

This was the last picture I took with her. Had I known it was going to be the last one, I would have been sitting in her lap and kissing her red face. The last time I saw her was in Sept '08, she was in the hospital. She kept staring at me, and I noticed it, I would look back at her and she just looked me in the eyes, she must have known that was going to be the last time she would see me. When I left her that day I sat next to her in her bed kissed her, she smiled, and we said our I love yous and I left. You never know when it will be the last picture you take with someone, or the last conversation, so now I try and leave on a good note :) I had almost 31 years with the best granny in the world, and I am so grateful. Thanks to GOD we will see each other again because neither one of us would have made it without HIM!

Death
1 Thessalonians 4:13,14
Revelation 21:4

Fear
Romans 8:29, 31, 35-39
2nd Timothy 1:7

Polycystic Ovarian What??

Men readers please be advise, I'll be talking about some women issues, but please keep reading because this is dealing with healing.

If you all didn't know I use to be married and in 2006 we were ready for kids. I wasn't getting pregnant. I had always had an issue with my cycles since they started. They were never regular, and every doctor I went to could never figure out what was wrong with me, they would just give me a prescription for Birth Control pills. The pills always made me very sick and sometimes my cycles would cause a pain so bad, I couldn't walk, at all! Freshman year at Sam Houston, I lost so much blood I had become a sever anemic and I was pale as ever, still they had no clue what was going on with me.

In 2006, I went to see a wonderful fertility specialist, here in Los Angeles, Dr. Tina Koopersmith. She did a series of test and concluded I had Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). In short this is what was causing the out of control cycles, and also developed tiny cysts, and it was going to be harder to have a baby. I was somewhat nervous while she talked to m about PCOS and I'm sitting in the chair waiting on her to say, but I can fix you! She never said that, in fact she told me you can't cure the syndrome, I can only control it with pills. Ugh, I hate pills!

First thing first, I had to have a surgery to remove the cysts. Sounds easy but I had never had a surgery in my life, and I was terrified!! I had everybody pray for my strength and my surgery. I walked into the hospital like "G", whatever that means, LOL. After my surgery, my Dr. told me I had bad scar tissue and it was going to be even harder to get pregnant. After that she put me on so many pills, I acually lost count. About 2months later I decdied I wasn't ready for kids so she put me on some more pills, so I coud have a regular cycle, big horse pills, in which I was going to have to take for the rest of my life.

A few months later I reached out to a Prayer Warrior at my church and told her what was going on, and she told me I was healed but I needed to stand on the word and believe it, and she laid hands on me. This was right before my 30th birthday, and the next day I got up I honestly felt like a new person. That month I stopped taking all those pills, because I'd planned to go back to my Dr. and tell her we need to try something else. What I hadn't notice was that God had already worked it out for me. I started to notice my cycles were coming on time every month, on it's own. WOW! Now this is a woman who has never had a regular cycle, that's super exciting because God healed me. My Dr. told me I could never be healed from PCOS and I would have to take medicine for the rest of my life and it's going on 3 years, that I have had a regular cycle with no medicine!! Thank you Jesus!!!

This is my story and I can only tell you what happened to me. I'm not telling anyone to bump what their Dr tells them, just know they are humans too and don't have the last word.

Here is a website about PCOS in case any ladies have questions about the syndrome.
http://pcos.insulitelabs.com/PCOS-Symptoms.php

God is Amazing and h is still performing miracle's today. I know when I get married and I'm ready to have a baby, I will be able to have a baby. In case you all didn't know I'm naming my daughter Morgan. All my close friends and family know this already, they call her by name. : )

2009... My Time to Shine!

When I turned 30 in 2008, I remember thinking I was really an adult, finally. It actually felt like Wisdom came and sat on my shoulders. I understood a lot about life and why I did certain things when I was younger and wiser now at 30 to never do them again...some of them ;)! However my real life lesson started that next year, in 2009. So many things I'd been working on achieving for the past years were not manifesting, no matter how hard I trained and worked, certain relationships were not turning out to be the best for me, and on top of it all I started that year losing one of the most important people in my life. Not a good start ugh!! I started to question God and religion, moral issues, certain preachers, and how a Christian's life is suppose to go. I was at cross road in my life where I felt I did all that God wanted me to do and I was, for some reason stuck in the same place. I soon found out why.

One thing you should know, starving artist... really starve, LOL! For that reason when ever I would get money I would put it away, or shall we say stash it, and never do anything for myself, or for my craft. I was so worried about never having enough money, that it was driving me crazy. It got so bad that I would really think long and hard about going to catch a 10 dollar movie, or going to get a burrito from one of my favorite places, Chipolte. I would tithe but when it came down to only having a little money after my tithes, the worry monster came out and started to debate with me; God understands, pay him a little this week and the rest when you get some more money, just drop an IOU in the collection plate it'll be all good! Ummm No, ShaWanna. One day my mother, Sharon, said to me..."ShaWanna you can't serve two masters". I said "Who else am I serving"? She said, "Money". I paused on the phone like what on Earth is she talking about. She said you're not trusting God to take care of you and all of your needs, your depending on the money you have in your account, and she said when that runs out, then what? I remember telling her one day I was only going to try and spend 15 dollars for a week, and I jokingly said I was going to make it rain with these 15 dollars, LMBO! Then she laid into me. I had another friend at the time, Maco Faniel, preaching the same things my mother was preaching. So I took it to the word and meditated. Sure enough I was worshiping money. The real eye opener was that it wasn't all about money, I wasn't letting God work freely in my life, I wasn't trusting him to do his will, and bless me accordingly. So I told God I was giving everything over to him and I was going to trust him. What do you think happened next? The next day God was so happy with that he blessed me with everything I ever wanted?

Ummmm not so easy, it actually became harder. May of 2009, I needed to move within a month. Found a place and I started to need money for everything, moving, 2 deposits (for my Tia) so much other stuff. When I moved into the apt it had no fridge(Like most LA apartments) I had an issue with a cable company's termination fee in which they just took out 400 dollars out of my account. I'm telling you anything you could think of with money happened! Including my cartoon show ending, and not knowing of we were going to get picked up for another season, so now I don't have a job. Yes most of the time I worried, and I remember calling my mother and Maco some days crying, because I didn't understand that if I was giving it to God, why was he putting me through all of this?

At "In His Presence" Church, they were teaching us about 20 20 30 method. Where you praise/worship God for 20 minutes each then study the word for 30 minutes. This started to become the highlight of my morning. They also asked us at church one day who was ready to move up in their career, I stood up and they prayed for us. I knew that day God had an A Amazing future ahead for me and I all of a sudden worried no more. I started to praise God for my situation and I meant it! I thanked him for all I was going through and even when other things came up, I just laughed and forgot about it. In the midst of it all I continued to dream and worked on my dreams becoming reality. I continued to train as an actor, I put things on paper that I wanted to produce, and I continued to write plays that I wanted to see come to life. Good things started to happen.

Southern Girls Production, which is me and my producing partner Lisa Nicole Bell company, was up for a NAACP nomination for our play "Deal Breakers", I started to audition like 3 to 4 times a week. I was getting call backs from network shows and national commercials, and I developed a relationship with a lot of them. I became very strong with auditioning that it was like second nature, I think only actors understand this part right now. Southern Girls started producing another project, a documentary about Black life, I started enjoying life with friends, I was able to go to the movies and Chipolte and not worry ;) I even started to date intelligent, attractive men, that's the best part, J/K! And I have never had to worry about money, clothes, or food.

So many great things happened in 2009, that it made me look back and I saw what God has brought me through; Divorce, He healed me of an illness, the passing of my Granny, certain weaknesses, sinful attitude, and most of all how to trust him. Trusting God is very scary, that's one of the reason I decided to blog, and tell you some of my experiences. I plan to tell you all about what I've been through and where I'm headed. Maybe if it doesn't help you, you can pass it on to someone that it may help.

Today, I'm super strong! I'm amazed at my strength and that's because God took me through deep waters and now I'm cleansed. In 2009 my relationship with God started to Shine...and it's getting brighter everyday!