Move, Get Out My Way!!!

I know we always talk about the really really big things GOD does for us, but I want to talk about something not so big, but did start to become a burden in my life, also to show you how something small can affect your life in a negative way. Now when you hear what this blog is about you are so gonna laugh, but that's good because you'll see how something so silly can get out of hand. What am I talking about...ROAD RAGE!!!

Who's still laughing? Be quiet. ;) I can't tell you when this started, but I do know I had it when I lived in Atlanta because I was reading my old prayer book the other day and I actually had Road Rage listed. I remember praying to control my temper behind the wheel, and I never thought it could better because it Always got worse. When I first moved to Los Angeles I was in prayer about this issue, and I remember I was driving and I was at a light and another driver was upset with me because of the way I was positioned, she rolled down her window and called me a slut. Like I said I was in prayer about it because normally I would had rolled down my window and called her a few names too, but I didn't. I remember shaking and actually crying because I wanted to go off on the lady but GOD was working with me and I needed to work with him. So let me tell you what I use to do and how bad it really was.

If someone would cut me off I would catch up with them and cut them off. Pass by people and make the crazy person face, blow my horn at people for not moving fast enough, then get mad if someone blew their horn at me. This woman blew her horn at my one time I put my car in park and made her go around me, and of course as she went around I rolled my window down and smiled and waved at her. When two cars go the same speed side by side, it would kill me when I couldn't get passed them, so I would ride both of them until one moved. The list goes on and on, however one nice thing was I would do, I would let anybody over...I was a polite Road Rager.

I noticed it was a problem when I got out of my car and would still be upset. I would go to work upset, or to the store and would wait for somebody to say something "smart" to me, and if they did, I would really have an attitude and all because it started in my car. It started to mess up my whole day and I'm an actress, so imagine me going into an audition with an attitude reading for a cheerleader.?? I use to say ShaWanna what if you go off on somebody one day, and you get to your audition and it was casting director? Who thinks I'd get the part? Me neither.

I was a totally different person behind the wheel, and I would feel crazy afterwards, so I started to pray about it. When that lady called me a slut I was in the process of working on my temper behind the wheel, that's why I started crying because everything in me wanted to let her have it, but I didn't. Funny instead of me being happy I passed that test I was still upset, LOL. That was in 2005, it's 2010 and yes I hav gotten better, but God is not done with me yet!! For the most part I'm a lot better, if I do lose it for a second I'm able to pull it together right away. I don't make faces or cut people off anymore, and I wait before I blow my horn, just to give them a second to see that the light has changed. I think writing about it tonight will make me more aware the next time I get behind the wheel.

So pray for me and don't cut me off if you see me driving!